Hiya friends, Iām going to keep it real candid here ā Iāve been genuinely concerned lately about whether or not I have ADHD. LOOOL.
And Iām certainly not qualified to speak on the topic in-depth, but what I do know is that lately, Iāve become acutely aware of my tendencies and how they line up with ADHD behaviour.
Last week, I recall sitting down in front of my laptop at 1PM, with the intention to perform a very specific task for work. I then found myself, FOUR HOURS LATER, having done everything but the task. Instead, I performed half a dozen other tasks, found myself in a rabbithole of God knows what, and did several other miscellaneous things that honestly, I canāt even recall to tell you.
You know what else is concerning? The fact that I have the memory span of Dory. In corporate small-talk fashion, Iām often asked the question āhow was your weekend?ā to which I genuinely, and I mean GENUINELY donāt know how to answer, because I donāt remember what I did. Thatās why I use my Google calendar religiously and journal + take photos every single day so that my entire LIFE aināt a blur.
My concept of time is questionable. Itās very easy for me to remember specific moments, feelings, and insightsā¦ but if you ask me dates, timestamps, or other material details? Nope. Forget it.
Letās not even talk about all the times Iāve forgotten to lock the door, lost something (bless my Airtags), or shown up severely late.
Regardless if I have ADHD or not, Iām fortunate to realize that Iāve already built some pretty impressive systems to stay āafloatā (for lack of better word). It aināt an exaggeration when I say that without my focus modes, auto-filtered emails, colour-coded calendar, task management systems, daily journaling practice, and Notion database where I store every relevant detail of my life, I may quite literally implode.
Iām serious. Iād become a shell of a human.
I find it funny sometimes, because people who know me in the professional context often see me as someone whoās hyper-organized, high-functioning, and āhas it all togetherā ā but little do they know that the systems I thrive on are actually necessary for my sole survival.
I canāt discredit my output though. I do work hard for it. >:)
If there are any insights I can pull out of this rant?
Donāt compare yourself to others ā especially not your whole self to someone elseās curated image. The seemingly most put-together people may actually be battling with very real things that donāt show outwardly.
Be smart with tools ā I refer to my journal, Notion, and calendar as my āsecond brain.ā I believe everyone can leverage tools (albeit with lots of experimentation) to counter their weaknesses and supercharge their strengths.
Self reflect! ā I mean, itās not the most empowering epiphany to reflect and realize I might have ADHD (LOOOOL), but self-reflection allows you to identify (and diagnose?) your personal behaviours/tendencies so that you can constantly improve. Notice patterns, ask yourself questions, and sit with yourself. Youāre bound to learn something new.
Thatās all I got for ya today, friends. P.S. I totally forgot to blast the last newsletter to your inbox, so if youād like to give it a read, check it out here!
āTil next time,
Meg
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Quote Iām pondering:
āThe same light you see in others is shining within you, too.ā āMorgan Harper Nichols
Raw life update:
Got a haircut. Fixed my chipped tooth. Did my taxes. Checked on my tenants. Learned some new recipes. Decluttered my digital space. Lots of life admin stuff.
Had some amazing journaling sessions ā and itās saved me from the depths of my crazy mind with thoughts running at 1000mph, all the time.
Experienced loads of spiritual growth through learning from sermons, prayer, conversations, and reflection. Still at the baby stages of my Christian journey, but I am so hopeful and excited for all thatās ahead.
Strengthened some new friendships in Toronto, and Iām really grateful for that.
Bracing myself for April. Itās going to fly by, and before I know it, Iāll be ending my Toronto chapter again. Iām glad I journal to pause and distill every little milestone or memory, no matter how big or small, to remind myself to honour the journey!
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