💌 Grieving the old you

The painful truth about growth & leaving familiarity behind

Jul 11, 2023

The first few days I arrived in Toronto, I felt a mix of feelings both positive and negative. Excitement, anticipation, joy, and pride — with anxiety, grief, sadness, and regret.

As I sat in my half-furnished condo, facing a city all but familiar, I started to miss everything about home. Friends to hang out with on a whim. Family to come home to and have dinners with. Day trips up mountains. West coast sunsets. Office days with my tight-knit team, and streets holding dozens of lifelong memories.

“Did I make the wrong choice?” I asked myself. What is the balance between appreciating what you already have, and striving for something more? How much am I supposed to scratch that itch?

My life in Vancouver was perfect. So perfect. But perfect to the point where I felt myself getting caught in a cyclone of comfort. I felt joy every day, but the growth-hungry side of me was screaming for motion. Vancouver couldn’t give that to her.

There’s nothing wrong with staying in your hometown — it’s a personal decision. My untethered soul simply knew I was meant to venture out. If I never moved to a bigger city, especially in my twenties, I’d wonder forever who I could’ve become.

So here I am, having taken that leap of faith.

Gosh, it’s scary. But growth happens beyond your comfort zone, the age-old quote that’ll always hold true. What will I make out of this new city? There are so many people I’ve yet to meet, experiences I’ve yet to have, personal epiphanies I’ve yet to discover — all of which just might completely change my life.

Abundance mindset in, the possibilities are endless.

Grief of your old self is a natural part of growth, perhaps even necessary. Letting go of the old makes space for the new, and I trust that whatever is to come, will shape me in ways I can’t fathom yet — and undoubtedly, this’ll be a chapter I can recall later in life and say, “I’m so freakin’ glad I did that.”

So here’s to honouring the past, staying present, and opening space for the future.

Yours,
Meg

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Quote I’m pondering:

“A memory without the emotional charge is called wisdom.” ―Joe Dispenza

Raw life update:

Parents returned back to Van after a 2-week stay, and I’m so grateful they got to experience the East Coast for the very first time, with me!

In the span of two weeks, we hit up:

Ottawa
Quebec City
Montreal
1000 Islands
Scarborough Bluffs
Niagara Falls
And every corner of downtown Toronto’s must-sees and dos

My new home = so warmed. Thankful for all the memories <3

Did a hot yoga class this morning — at 7 AM !!! I’m making a conscious effort to bring routine back, be it mornings, nutrition, journaling, or workouts. It feels so good.

Ya girl is also back on dating apps, for the first time in a year and half — 100x more intentional, 100x more healed, and 100x wiser (let’s sure hope anyway). :’)

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