The first few days I arrived in Toronto, I felt a mix of feelings both positive and negative. Excitement, anticipation, joy, and pride ā with anxiety, grief, sadness, and regret.
As I sat in my half-furnished condo, facing a city all but familiar, I started to miss everything about home. Friends to hang out with on a whim. Family to come home to and have dinners with. Day trips up mountains. West coast sunsets. Office days with my tight-knit team, and streets holding dozens of lifelong memories.
āDid I make the wrong choice?ā I asked myself. What is the balance between appreciating what you already have, and striving for something more? How much am I supposed to scratch that itch?
My life in Vancouver was perfect. So perfect. But perfect to the point where I felt myself getting caught in a cyclone of comfort. I felt joy every day, but the growth-hungry side of me was screaming for motion. Vancouver couldnāt give that to her.
Thereās nothing wrong with staying in your hometown ā itās a personal decision. My untethered soul simply knew I was meant to venture out. If I never moved to a bigger city, especially in my twenties, Iād wonder forever who I couldāve become.
So here I am, having taken that leap of faith.
Gosh, itās scary. But growth happens beyond your comfort zone, the age-old quote thatāll always hold true. What will I make out of this new city? There are so many people Iāve yet to meet, experiences Iāve yet to have, personal epiphanies Iāve yet to discover ā all of which just might completely change my life.
Abundance mindset in, the possibilities are endless.
Grief of your old self is a natural part of growth, perhaps even necessary. Letting go of the old makes space for the new, and I trust that whatever is to come, will shape me in ways I canāt fathom yet ā and undoubtedly, thisāll be a chapter I can recall later in life and say, āIām so freakinā glad I did that.ā
So hereās to honouring the past, staying present, and opening space for the future.
Yours,
Meg
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āA memory without the emotional charge is called wisdom.ā āJoe Dispenza
Raw life update:
Parents returned back to Van after a 2-week stay, and Iām so grateful they got to experience the East Coast for the very first time, with me!
In the span of two weeks, we hit up:
Ottawa
Quebec City
Montreal
1000 Islands
Scarborough Bluffs
Niagara Falls
And every corner of downtown Torontoās must-sees and dos
My new home = so warmed. Thankful for all the memories <3
Did a hot yoga class this morning ā at 7 AM !!! Iām making a conscious effort to bring routine back, be it mornings, nutrition, journaling, or workouts. It feels so good.
Ya girl is also back on dating apps, for the first time in a year and half ā 100x more intentional, 100x more healed, and 100x wiser (letās sure hope anyway). :ā)
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